~Names have been changed to protect the guilty.
[originally posted 9/22/2005]
Another week working security at the Jam, interesting news all the way around.
Seems the managements marketing is paying off as many new and old faces made an appearance. Among them the old friend who chose to follow the path to power. I think I understand now why I walk on the blade.
In many ways my whole life has been a balancing act. Doing what is nessecary without the motivation that makes it a power act. Straddling the line between means and ends. I tried to deny that about myself as I went through the elders' teaching but in the end I can't. I am neither light nor dark. I straddle the line. The ability to see what I see, the possibilities, the permutations seems to require that I have one foot on each side. I read the cards last night. Not that I needed to.
He believes that he is a puppet or a puppetmaster. Maybe he knows he is a puppet and wishes to become a master. Unfortunately when he chooses to view things that way he has already lost the fight. I've discovered that people have to make their own choices, they can be redeemed yet they cannot be controlled, they need to know that I am around and that I care, but not that I will take away the option that gives them their journey. I've been guilty of that lately, protecting by taking away... He can be redeemed, we all can, I've seen it, I've done it.... Hope cannot be lost, even if I need to destroy him.... *sad chuckle* Contradictions, puzzles, paths...
Hell, that's another thing I probably can't change, I kill to protect, I destroy to preserve..... I walk the blade...
*quiet* I only hope the blood I spill on it will be my redemption for the blood I take with it.
Another week working security at the Jam, interesting news all the way around.
Seems the managements marketing is paying off as many new and old faces made an appearance. Among them the old friend who chose to follow the path to power. I think I understand now why I walk on the blade.
In many ways my whole life has been a balancing act. Doing what is nessecary without the motivation that makes it a power act. Straddling the line between means and ends. I tried to deny that about myself as I went through the elders' teaching but in the end I can't. I am neither light nor dark. I straddle the line. The ability to see what I see, the possibilities, the permutations seems to require that I have one foot on each side. I read the cards last night. Not that I needed to.
He believes that he is a puppet or a puppetmaster. Maybe he knows he is a puppet and wishes to become a master. Unfortunately when he chooses to view things that way he has already lost the fight. I've discovered that people have to make their own choices, they can be redeemed yet they cannot be controlled, they need to know that I am around and that I care, but not that I will take away the option that gives them their journey. I've been guilty of that lately, protecting by taking away... He can be redeemed, we all can, I've seen it, I've done it.... Hope cannot be lost, even if I need to destroy him.... *sad chuckle* Contradictions, puzzles, paths...
Hell, that's another thing I probably can't change, I kill to protect, I destroy to preserve..... I walk the blade...
*quiet* I only hope the blood I spill on it will be my redemption for the blood I take with it.
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