~Names have been changed to protect the guilty.
Heritage...
Published Wednesday, July 12, 2006.
[Noel is meditating, teaching his student/friend Shalis shortly after the death of his Gran. They speak mostly through telepathic link, not breaking the still night air in the mountains of Talus.]
"I haven't been sleeping more then a couple hours a night... Devia's been on my case about it too."
Why? I thought I was the only person who used to run myself ragged like that.
Because.... the flows, the learning, my agents.... it's what is required.
I see...
I must have been more tired then I thought because I offered to show her something I'd only ever shown Devia, Would you like to? I think you can handle it, would you like to see what I see?
The offer is tempting...but you're still tired...are you certain?
Aye, I'm actually holding it back at this point..... less energy to show you.
All right, yes.
I dropped my barriers, trying to transmit both a voiceover and what I could see...
Here's you..... tied to me.... tied to Devia, stronger cuz of the healing, tied to synla, tied to gutts, Sy. tied to N. where the trail is cloudy, backing up along the path it is obvious that Sy.'s little boy is force sensitive whether she wants to believe it or not and will be strong in mind and ability...here's Devia, strongly tied to me, but the healing ties her to Shal as well.... our old friends in the service.... undercover, in hiding, protected by my efforts, here's T, the inquisitor, chasing Z...... who won't let me hide her.... and endangers my goddaughter....
I lost breath then, the voiceover fading to the background, but from what I understand I was still saying every name, random data from slices and reports enters, it becomes a river and the colored flows representing what I thought was mine to protect and guard is mapped, analyzed, futures attempted to be predicted, pasts considered while I sat in a bubble and floats with it
She watched, feeling herself sway as she took it all in. It was so much, too much, she wasn't used to view the flow, the connections like this. To her credit she managed to stay on her feet, and to not panic as the information came more quickly, and the web got larger, dancing outward.
I spoke across the link softly, It's alright, it isn't yours.... it's mine.... but this is what I see, eyes open or closed.
You can deal with it? If she'd been speaking her voice would have been breathless
What other choice is there? Until there is another seer.... the burden is mine.... I have people who help me share it.... like devia.... and you.
I've...never seen the flow this way Noel...I...see...auric impressions...they guide me in combat...and..when I'm with you and the others help me to keep up...that's incredible....but such a burden.
My gran had it worse.... 200 years waiting for a successor. It isn't meant for one.... and it won't be just mine forever, but for now....
...you bear it.
Aye....But watch.... I showed her that since she was helping Sy. I don't have to watch as closely, letting it fade, still there but not focused on. You should know, you're one of only a handful that my gift recognizes as acting the same as I..... that it sees you as one of my hands....
Master Dahl always believed my gifts lay along the lines of healing perhaps in another time...I think you are right.
I don't expect you to understand the flow, or take any part of it.... it's more like it was my hand taking care of synla, and the gift recognizes that she's ok.... that she dosen't have to be present in the analyzed flow.
But to understand it...to preserve at least...some of the ways of those who came before me...to learn...this is what I do Noel...if not heal...then this.
This is very very old shal..... older then the jedi.... let me show you the deep past....Once the jedi considered the gift of foresight, and the seers as valid parts of the order.... even though they needed emotional attachments to see and guide the flows. As time went on their was a prophecy.... concerning a balance... which I believe was made by my predesecors..... and it scared the order. Not the prophecy, but the seer's saying that the balance would swing away from the wars they had been fighting the whole time they existed.
That it would swing away? Hm...Away from the conflicts that have plagued the jedi order for millenia? How could this be a bad thing?
Not away from the conflicts, away from the power base.... to reduce their growing power, their false dichotomy. Towards what they termed the 'dark side" The seers were marginalized over their understanding of the prophecy, of it's inevitability, their view that the teaching methods which gave the order power needed to be modifyed. And since they were never considered knights, or anything other then guests.... they drifted away, back home, back to the clans. To teach their sons and daughters..... until my Gran was the last..... Her daughter, my mother.... would have been the future... Gran had waited 120 years, clinging to life, for my mother to find her Tai Shan..... a family requirement for becoming a seer. My mother did.... and concieved me..... before her and my father were caught running from the imperials and killed.....
I barely felt her hand on mine, urging me to continue.
So gran took her hiding spot, which she saw the need for years before.... hooked herself up to lifesupport machines, and continued another 80 or 90 years past the birth of her successor.... for me.... ....she couldn't take me in.... the flows told her not to..... I don't know why. And then she waited until I found my Tai Shan.... before passing on.... the gift and to the next life
I think...I understand...at least a bit...we led two very different lives up until we met...Why else would the Dahls have left?
I understand.... though I don't understand as well.... but it's very incomplete... almost none of the training was written down, as each seer was different... There's a ton of archives in Gran's hideaway, but most of it is informational, not related to the practice, but reports of ship movement, slices into things.... suplemental data for the flows she monitored for over 200 years.
Wow...if I may note....some of the best training comes from experience...and word of mouth...it was why the jedi set up a master, apprentice ranking...if I am understanding correctly.
Aye.... very true So.... well.... I don't know that you are a seer Shalis.... It seems different to me.... but I know you're one of mine to protect.And I thank you for the friendship and learning you let me do by teaching you.
And I thank you...sometimes I'm not certain what I am either Noel...I don't think I've quite discovered it yet...though...I do still love to heal others...I'm glad we met, truly.
I began to laugh, I see a long time period before you find your version of a Tai Shan.... *laughing, teasing you
Devia wondered what I did to make her blush so hard as she walked up behind us.....
"I haven't been sleeping more then a couple hours a night... Devia's been on my case about it too."
Why? I thought I was the only person who used to run myself ragged like that.
Because.... the flows, the learning, my agents.... it's what is required.
I see...
I must have been more tired then I thought because I offered to show her something I'd only ever shown Devia, Would you like to? I think you can handle it, would you like to see what I see?
The offer is tempting...but you're still tired...are you certain?
Aye, I'm actually holding it back at this point..... less energy to show you.
All right, yes.
I dropped my barriers, trying to transmit both a voiceover and what I could see...
Here's you..... tied to me.... tied to Devia, stronger cuz of the healing, tied to synla, tied to gutts, Sy. tied to N. where the trail is cloudy, backing up along the path it is obvious that Sy.'s little boy is force sensitive whether she wants to believe it or not and will be strong in mind and ability...here's Devia, strongly tied to me, but the healing ties her to Shal as well.... our old friends in the service.... undercover, in hiding, protected by my efforts, here's T, the inquisitor, chasing Z...... who won't let me hide her.... and endangers my goddaughter....
I lost breath then, the voiceover fading to the background, but from what I understand I was still saying every name, random data from slices and reports enters, it becomes a river and the colored flows representing what I thought was mine to protect and guard is mapped, analyzed, futures attempted to be predicted, pasts considered while I sat in a bubble and floats with it
She watched, feeling herself sway as she took it all in. It was so much, too much, she wasn't used to view the flow, the connections like this. To her credit she managed to stay on her feet, and to not panic as the information came more quickly, and the web got larger, dancing outward.
I spoke across the link softly, It's alright, it isn't yours.... it's mine.... but this is what I see, eyes open or closed.
You can deal with it? If she'd been speaking her voice would have been breathless
What other choice is there? Until there is another seer.... the burden is mine.... I have people who help me share it.... like devia.... and you.
I've...never seen the flow this way Noel...I...see...auric impressions...they guide me in combat...and..when I'm with you and the others help me to keep up...that's incredible....but such a burden.
My gran had it worse.... 200 years waiting for a successor. It isn't meant for one.... and it won't be just mine forever, but for now....
...you bear it.
Aye....But watch.... I showed her that since she was helping Sy. I don't have to watch as closely, letting it fade, still there but not focused on. You should know, you're one of only a handful that my gift recognizes as acting the same as I..... that it sees you as one of my hands....
Master Dahl always believed my gifts lay along the lines of healing perhaps in another time...I think you are right.
I don't expect you to understand the flow, or take any part of it.... it's more like it was my hand taking care of synla, and the gift recognizes that she's ok.... that she dosen't have to be present in the analyzed flow.
But to understand it...to preserve at least...some of the ways of those who came before me...to learn...this is what I do Noel...if not heal...then this.
This is very very old shal..... older then the jedi.... let me show you the deep past....Once the jedi considered the gift of foresight, and the seers as valid parts of the order.... even though they needed emotional attachments to see and guide the flows. As time went on their was a prophecy.... concerning a balance... which I believe was made by my predesecors..... and it scared the order. Not the prophecy, but the seer's saying that the balance would swing away from the wars they had been fighting the whole time they existed.
That it would swing away? Hm...Away from the conflicts that have plagued the jedi order for millenia? How could this be a bad thing?
Not away from the conflicts, away from the power base.... to reduce their growing power, their false dichotomy. Towards what they termed the 'dark side" The seers were marginalized over their understanding of the prophecy, of it's inevitability, their view that the teaching methods which gave the order power needed to be modifyed. And since they were never considered knights, or anything other then guests.... they drifted away, back home, back to the clans. To teach their sons and daughters..... until my Gran was the last..... Her daughter, my mother.... would have been the future... Gran had waited 120 years, clinging to life, for my mother to find her Tai Shan..... a family requirement for becoming a seer. My mother did.... and concieved me..... before her and my father were caught running from the imperials and killed.....
I barely felt her hand on mine, urging me to continue.
So gran took her hiding spot, which she saw the need for years before.... hooked herself up to lifesupport machines, and continued another 80 or 90 years past the birth of her successor.... for me.... ....she couldn't take me in.... the flows told her not to..... I don't know why. And then she waited until I found my Tai Shan.... before passing on.... the gift and to the next life
I think...I understand...at least a bit...we led two very different lives up until we met...Why else would the Dahls have left?
I understand.... though I don't understand as well.... but it's very incomplete... almost none of the training was written down, as each seer was different... There's a ton of archives in Gran's hideaway, but most of it is informational, not related to the practice, but reports of ship movement, slices into things.... suplemental data for the flows she monitored for over 200 years.
Wow...if I may note....some of the best training comes from experience...and word of mouth...it was why the jedi set up a master, apprentice ranking...if I am understanding correctly.
Aye.... very true So.... well.... I don't know that you are a seer Shalis.... It seems different to me.... but I know you're one of mine to protect.And I thank you for the friendship and learning you let me do by teaching you.
And I thank you...sometimes I'm not certain what I am either Noel...I don't think I've quite discovered it yet...though...I do still love to heal others...I'm glad we met, truly.
I began to laugh, I see a long time period before you find your version of a Tai Shan.... *laughing, teasing you
Devia wondered what I did to make her blush so hard as she walked up behind us.....
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